I wait for that day I am bored

I read somewhere that a lady was waiting for that day to come that she was bored and I thought - ya so am I but.....only if that means that the stuff I had to do is already done!

What a nice thought- I have to prepare the forest and house for the party and decide on the food and make it and buy all the things that I need like....ice and booze and ya- lots to do!

I have furniture to put together in the garage and wood to buy and stack- There's a bedroom to paint and boy the list still goes on doesn't it!

I want to clean basement and garage and get rid of stuff and clean closets and get rid of stuff- boy I cannot wait until all that is done and I can just be bored!!

I should be happy that I found a snow board for 180 for the girl and I just have to buy the bindings for the snowboard I got last year for the boy- I have new skis for my girl so I also have new skis for the boy in that he gets her old ones.

I need boots for his snowboard and a jacket but I also have until Xmas before the snow flies- or so I think /hope.

In a year and a half I had a lot done, replaced ,fixed. And yet I still have a lot to dooooooo tooooo

just when you think it's going good......

So I thought I was cruising pretty well down the stress highway- I got home from a trip late one night the next day I was up and at it to get the electrical done- I finally peeked at the visa bill and was okay with it- not happy but okay.

I had gotten to a cottage to put stuff away, partook in the TG activities and made soups for the kids and the broth of two soups for friends.

I was getting some extra cleaning done- cleaned the fridge and the fronts of the kitchen cupboard doors and was keeping up at work and popping things in like no tomorrow into the calendar to be ready and know what's happening when-

Then it hit me 3 days of waiting for my kids to clean up and really clean up not this stuff it in the closet crap. Then the name calling started and they start fbombing me for things they should have done. lists 3 days old - not completed- rooms full of crap- then I start to fall back and then my legs give out and the next thing I know I am full out rolling backwards downhill hit and am crushed by the nastiness.

How can I do all I do for them- fix things make dinners ( that week roast chicken with mashed potatoes and the next day roast prime rib with boiled potatoes and veg and salads from the garden and then 2 home made soups.... )I made lunches included a pop and a chocolate bar as a surprise and then- they start swearing and calling me names and telling me to shut up.

I crashed hard and fast last night and it was very upsetting and I am really hurt by the kids. I don't know what to do....I miss my husband and I am angry and sad and lonely and hurt.

back from Yucatan Peninsula

Well we had a week in Mexico and the weather before our week was rainy and the week after they got a Hurricane so I am happy to report we had nothing but sunny hot weather and we enjoyed the trip- Mayan ruins, secret underground rivers and lots of beach.....it was a great trip.

The shopping stressed me out and I started to really worry about how much I was spending but I think it's going to be okay-
I loved the beach, hot white sand and blue sea made it fantastic- we chased the stingrays with our snorkels and fed fish schools that swarmed us! The iguanas were plenty- big to small and a few ate the banana my son fed them which was cute-

We saw a lot of the country and ate a few Mexican faves- tacos, corn chips and lots of guacamole and fresh salsa!

The kids learned a bit of Spanish and I practiced mine!

Then we got home- early the next morning was a helping cousin who fixed the lights I screwed up and the plug that was wonky- next I cleaned and did washing and got groceries and the dog- Next we put away a good deal of cottage stuff and removed the food- then we had turkey dinner and I took a lot of the carcass home- de-boned the meat and cubed the good stuff and boiled the bones and made a soup broth- I then brought the broth and a good amount of meat to my neighbors house who has been quite ill and she was pretty happy to get it and gave me pointers on how she makes the soups she has shared with me over the years-

She gave me a few spices and then I made my turkey noodle, she made hers and we both enjoyed a home made soup !

She had a chicken that she hadn't cooked yet and she was trying to get the energy up for it so she could make a soup- I guess my timing was good-

Then last night I made a roast beef dinner and did the same thing with the beef bone- my soup is amazing and she's happy to get a soup broth on again for next week! They like soup for lunches- They are older so they have the time for a nice home cooked lunch!

She also feels more productive this way, I do a lot of the long work and get the broth to her and then she just dices a few veg and add some noodles and spice and feels like she took care of dinner!

Once someone is sick and stops doing the little things it can really make them feel useless and it was my hope to activate the good proud feelings of accomplishment that will also make her feel better- :)