Fab passive agressive friends

I found a book the other day and it was full of drawings- as I sat to look at it my girl said to me that it was given to my son by one of his friends and it was from a former friend of his at school. This friend was drawing pictures of snipers shooting my son dead. He drew pictures of guns and bombs and all kids of violent things and swear words related to my son.

The fact that this comes from a kid who spent time with us at the cottage and was a close friend just blows my mind. Then to hear from the school official that I talked to that not only did the teachers know that there was a problem between these two kids but the parent's that were my friends at the time took the time to alert the school that there was a problem. No one bothered to talk to me about it from the school- they just listened to the one side of the story hearing what they had to say and that's it!

Last fall my friend /this parent called to say the boys were not getting along and I said that if it was my son picking on him or bugging him he would apologise and he did say sorry to the child that very day right there on the phone...I made it clear that this was not okay and if he did something that hurt him he should not repeat this.
Now knowing that things are never one sided I did say to the mother "I know that our husbands were quite stubborn and that it may well be that the boys also are ...." I did allude to the fact that her son may be doing things that also contribute. I guess by suggesting that I was now considered "not approachable" any more. yep that's what she said to the school about me, and I was a little taken aback today to hear that. Apparently that's her way of being proactive about this.... dis me in front of the school people before I even know the fight is on! Well I had a long chat about this with the school and I also have a meeting next week about this and I will have no problem calling her out on the fact that she de friended me to everyone else but me and made an issue between a few school kids dissolve the friendship. And more important that her child is very aggressive and angry and the drawing he made were downright sick.

I hate e-mail

Why I hate e-mail

• I hate that I go to the e-mail and panic that I haven't heard from someone in 2 days- but I do- I hate that...Seriously 2 days? People are busy why should that panic me?
• I hate that I sent all these e-mails with people looking for a home for the cat they have and only 1 replied that he's taken.
• I hate that I look at my e-mails after they are sent and they have typos.
• I hate that I always feel the need to check my mail- I have driven to a place in the country only to bring a laptop in case I find intranet!
• I hate that I hardly speak with some people anymore because I can send them an e-mail instead.

Ok the really big one is the house I renting! I really want to make sure that he's renting it to me!!! I am going crazy wondering if he's cashing my cheque and worrying about getting the keys and if I really don't want this all screwed up!!! I hate being responsible!

panic?

I sent a cheque to the person from whom I am renting a house in the Keys and I am waiting since Jan 29 for them to get the cheque and cash it- then I start to panic that I will somehow get screwed in this whole deal!

If I don't and it works out ok- it'll be the first time in a long time that I just take 2 full weeks and relax! I am a week at the house and a week on a cruise. I am trying to keep calm and just look forward to everything but man I am starting to notice that I am a real worrier!
At least the flights are booked and I guess if it comes to it we'll book a hotel or something! I just need to be in the warmth and sun a little while and I'll feel ok ....

I need to think cold beer - pool and let my head find a happy place !

I miss the days when my husband would choose where we went and just take charge- I remember one time we booked a hotel in the Keys and it was poolside on a resort and facing a restaurant and it wasn't terrible but it was nothing like the place he found to move to. I guess I am a bit complacent in my ways and he just went into control mode- he got the CAA book out and called around until he found a place he wanted to go then he packed us all up and moved us to the golf side of Florida- it was a long drive and boy was he right- it was one of my favorite vacations- we ended up in a fantastic little condo overlooking the ocean with a plank walkway walk to the beach- it had a pool and BBQ and full kitchen and he was so right about it all! I miss him more now than I did the first weeks and months after he died. It just seems harder and harder. I wish I could slip back into that place where I was when I had him to take care of everything- I am not high maintenance but I did like the aspect of someone caring for me. I don't really get that being a single parent. I miss just asking for someone to help because that is part of your partnership. I'll never have that again- even if I meet someone- my kids will always be mine and no one else is responsible or ever will be for them except me. It's hard knowing that I will never have someone to turn to.

I miss him so very much

week day off

I felt lousy and so did the kids- we were all off yesterday and RJ was off with me the day before- what did I get done? Sleep! I think every so often I need to just sleep like a teenager and stay in bed and cut off the world until afternoon. I felt rather guilty but then I was starting to feel really emotional and it combined with aches and pains and no appetite translated into a mild flu.

I got some money transferred into my account from the investor's group that's holding it and paid off a credit line I had tapped into. Now I have a couch to pay for then flights and spending money for the trip to the Keys to worry about- as well as the painters coming and next week and money for the probation fees and I was thinking about framing some room in the basement to work out in....but in the mean time I feel better with all credit cards paid off ( except the flights I booked today) and the credit line at Zero!

Other than that we booked our flights and the cruise is paid for and I am really looking forward to this vacay!
I looked at my holidays and noted that I have a few compressed day I can use and a few bonus days like the personal and volunteer days so that minimizes my holidays taken. This is really good because then I can take summer vacation to care for the kids!