I am really tired- the time changed and I lost an hour but more than that I heard a bang last night while sleeping and the sleep after that was less than calming. I had dreams and and kept waking up and wondering what the noise was - I looked this morning and there was a light that I had hung under the cupboard that runs on batteries- My thought was in the case of power going out I could use it as a bathroom light- My daughter keeps taking the flashlights and I never find them or they are dead already- Anyway thanks to me being proactive and having a plan in case of a power outage- I did not sleep last night- Maybe had I gotten up and rested my mind at ease things would have been better- oh well morning came and I 'll get to bed early tonight I guess!
Tomorrow my new gazebo comes- -plus the kayaks! Ahh summer it seems to be really close ! Grass is popping out and things are moving along! Soon blooms and plants weeds and bugs and grass cutting - can't wait! :)
I wanted to clean the basement and pack up a bunch of stuff but that's the way things go sometimes....I ran out of time and when I take a day off I don't always have the energy to do anything else. I really look forward to the time when I can get another room done and go work out there....have all the junk at the back of the house all nicely stored on shelves......yes all that would be great!
Monday, March 15, 2010
Friday, March 5, 2010
irony-
I use this to vent and was re-reading it thinking wow-it's really negative- I sound bitter and brutal-
So the other day I started happy tone style post and was talking about happy things I did and what made me feel good that week. Suddenly I hit the wrong key and the whole post vanished.....ironic? I think so!
It's like the blog rejected the happy tone!
I will try to be positive again on another post- let's see how that one goes!
So the other day I started happy tone style post and was talking about happy things I did and what made me feel good that week. Suddenly I hit the wrong key and the whole post vanished.....ironic? I think so!
It's like the blog rejected the happy tone!
I will try to be positive again on another post- let's see how that one goes!
really ? back to that?
The "Hair Cut" issue came up again this week and all I can say about this is f-o!!!!
Wow how self centered can one person be? I haven't spoke to him unless I have to about work issues since he brought it up again this week in front of the whole office all the while trying to recruit a co worker to back him saying you laughed at it didn't you? ( you laughed at the stupid comment she ( me ) made. )
I can't get over the fact that almost four months have past and he's bringing it up again. Grow up the world does not revolved around you or your looks! Get over it-
Sadly my one coworker with whom I really get along is leaving and he plans to speak to the boss about my coworkers and the issues and exclusions and the aggressiveness and let the boss know know what's going on.
He never told me a thing about this until he was about to leave and it was such a relief to know I am not alone in feeling what I do. The person I think is cold - he feels he can't read her and he doesn't trust her- on the other person he says he feels know where it's coming from and there is so much transparency that he can read him and cut him off before he gets going.
I wish I was leaving too but with so much going on right now I can't add another stress~
Wow how self centered can one person be? I haven't spoke to him unless I have to about work issues since he brought it up again this week in front of the whole office all the while trying to recruit a co worker to back him saying you laughed at it didn't you? ( you laughed at the stupid comment she ( me ) made. )
I can't get over the fact that almost four months have past and he's bringing it up again. Grow up the world does not revolved around you or your looks! Get over it-
Sadly my one coworker with whom I really get along is leaving and he plans to speak to the boss about my coworkers and the issues and exclusions and the aggressiveness and let the boss know know what's going on.
He never told me a thing about this until he was about to leave and it was such a relief to know I am not alone in feeling what I do. The person I think is cold - he feels he can't read her and he doesn't trust her- on the other person he says he feels know where it's coming from and there is so much transparency that he can read him and cut him off before he gets going.
I wish I was leaving too but with so much going on right now I can't add another stress~
Friday, February 19, 2010
Fab passive agressive friends
I found a book the other day and it was full of drawings- as I sat to look at it my girl said to me that it was given to my son by one of his friends and it was from a former friend of his at school. This friend was drawing pictures of snipers shooting my son dead. He drew pictures of guns and bombs and all kids of violent things and swear words related to my son.
The fact that this comes from a kid who spent time with us at the cottage and was a close friend just blows my mind. Then to hear from the school official that I talked to that not only did the teachers know that there was a problem between these two kids but the parent's that were my friends at the time took the time to alert the school that there was a problem. No one bothered to talk to me about it from the school- they just listened to the one side of the story hearing what they had to say and that's it!
Last fall my friend /this parent called to say the boys were not getting along and I said that if it was my son picking on him or bugging him he would apologise and he did say sorry to the child that very day right there on the phone...I made it clear that this was not okay and if he did something that hurt him he should not repeat this.
Now knowing that things are never one sided I did say to the mother "I know that our husbands were quite stubborn and that it may well be that the boys also are ...." I did allude to the fact that her son may be doing things that also contribute. I guess by suggesting that I was now considered "not approachable" any more. yep that's what she said to the school about me, and I was a little taken aback today to hear that. Apparently that's her way of being proactive about this.... dis me in front of the school people before I even know the fight is on! Well I had a long chat about this with the school and I also have a meeting next week about this and I will have no problem calling her out on the fact that she de friended me to everyone else but me and made an issue between a few school kids dissolve the friendship. And more important that her child is very aggressive and angry and the drawing he made were downright sick.
The fact that this comes from a kid who spent time with us at the cottage and was a close friend just blows my mind. Then to hear from the school official that I talked to that not only did the teachers know that there was a problem between these two kids but the parent's that were my friends at the time took the time to alert the school that there was a problem. No one bothered to talk to me about it from the school- they just listened to the one side of the story hearing what they had to say and that's it!
Last fall my friend /this parent called to say the boys were not getting along and I said that if it was my son picking on him or bugging him he would apologise and he did say sorry to the child that very day right there on the phone...I made it clear that this was not okay and if he did something that hurt him he should not repeat this.
Now knowing that things are never one sided I did say to the mother "I know that our husbands were quite stubborn and that it may well be that the boys also are ...." I did allude to the fact that her son may be doing things that also contribute. I guess by suggesting that I was now considered "not approachable" any more. yep that's what she said to the school about me, and I was a little taken aback today to hear that. Apparently that's her way of being proactive about this.... dis me in front of the school people before I even know the fight is on! Well I had a long chat about this with the school and I also have a meeting next week about this and I will have no problem calling her out on the fact that she de friended me to everyone else but me and made an issue between a few school kids dissolve the friendship. And more important that her child is very aggressive and angry and the drawing he made were downright sick.
Thursday, February 11, 2010
I hate e-mail
Why I hate e-mail
- I hate that I go to the e-mail and panic that I haven't heard from someone in 2 days- but I do- I hate that...Seriously 2 days? People are busy why should that panic me?
- I hate that I sent all these e-mails with people looking for a home for the cat they have and only 1 replied that he's taken.
- I hate that I look at my e-mails after they are sent and they have typos.
- I hate that I always feel the need to check my mail- I have driven to a place in the country only to bring a laptop in case I find intranet!
- I hate that I hardly speak with some people anymore because I can send them an e-mail instead.
Ok the really big one is the house I renting! I really want to make sure that he's renting it to me!!! I am going crazy wondering if he's cashing my cheque and worrying about getting the keys and if I really don't want this all screwed up!!! I hate being responsible!
Monday, February 8, 2010
panic?
I sent a cheque to the person from whom I am renting a house in the Keys and I am waiting since Jan 29 for them to get the cheque and cash it- then I start to panic that I will somehow get screwed in this whole deal!
If I don't and it works out ok- it'll be the first time in a long time that I just take 2 full weeks and relax! I am a week at the house and a week on a cruise. I am trying to keep calm and just look forward to everything but man I am starting to notice that I am a real worrier!
At least the flights are booked and I guess if it comes to it we'll book a hotel or something! I just need to be in the warmth and sun a little while and I'll feel ok ....
I need to think cold beer - pool and let my head find a happy place !
I miss the days when my husband would choose where we went and just take charge- I remember one time we booked a hotel in the Keys and it was poolside on a resort and facing a restaurant and it wasn't terrible but it was nothing like the place he found to move to. I guess I am a bit complacent in my ways and he just went into control mode- he got the CAA book out and called around until he found a place he wanted to go then he packed us all up and moved us to the golf side of Florida- it was a long drive and boy was he right- it was one of my favorite vacations- we ended up in a fantastic little condo overlooking the ocean with a plank walkway walk to the beach- it had a pool and BBQ and full kitchen and he was so right about it all! I miss him more now than I did the first weeks and months after he died. It just seems harder and harder. I wish I could slip back into that place where I was when I had him to take care of everything- I am not high maintenance but I did like the aspect of someone caring for me. I don't really get that being a single parent. I miss just asking for someone to help because that is part of your partnership. I'll never have that again- even if I meet someone- my kids will always be mine and no one else is responsible or ever will be for them except me. It's hard knowing that I will never have someone to turn to.
I miss him so very much
If I don't and it works out ok- it'll be the first time in a long time that I just take 2 full weeks and relax! I am a week at the house and a week on a cruise. I am trying to keep calm and just look forward to everything but man I am starting to notice that I am a real worrier!
At least the flights are booked and I guess if it comes to it we'll book a hotel or something! I just need to be in the warmth and sun a little while and I'll feel ok ....
I need to think cold beer - pool and let my head find a happy place !
I miss the days when my husband would choose where we went and just take charge- I remember one time we booked a hotel in the Keys and it was poolside on a resort and facing a restaurant and it wasn't terrible but it was nothing like the place he found to move to. I guess I am a bit complacent in my ways and he just went into control mode- he got the CAA book out and called around until he found a place he wanted to go then he packed us all up and moved us to the golf side of Florida- it was a long drive and boy was he right- it was one of my favorite vacations- we ended up in a fantastic little condo overlooking the ocean with a plank walkway walk to the beach- it had a pool and BBQ and full kitchen and he was so right about it all! I miss him more now than I did the first weeks and months after he died. It just seems harder and harder. I wish I could slip back into that place where I was when I had him to take care of everything- I am not high maintenance but I did like the aspect of someone caring for me. I don't really get that being a single parent. I miss just asking for someone to help because that is part of your partnership. I'll never have that again- even if I meet someone- my kids will always be mine and no one else is responsible or ever will be for them except me. It's hard knowing that I will never have someone to turn to.
I miss him so very much
Thursday, February 4, 2010
week day off
I felt lousy and so did the kids- we were all off yesterday and RJ was off with me the day before- what did I get done? Sleep! I think every so often I need to just sleep like a teenager and stay in bed and cut off the world until afternoon. I felt rather guilty but then I was starting to feel really emotional and it combined with aches and pains and no appetite translated into a mild flu.
I got some money transferred into my account from the investor's group that's holding it and paid off a credit line I had tapped into. Now I have a couch to pay for then flights and spending money for the trip to the Keys to worry about- as well as the painters coming and next week and money for the probation fees and I was thinking about framing some room in the basement to work out in....but in the mean time I feel better with all credit cards paid off ( except the flights I booked today) and the credit line at Zero!
Other than that we booked our flights and the cruise is paid for and I am really looking forward to this vacay!
I looked at my holidays and noted that I have a few compressed day I can use and a few bonus days like the personal and volunteer days so that minimizes my holidays taken. This is really good because then I can take summer vacation to care for the kids!
I got some money transferred into my account from the investor's group that's holding it and paid off a credit line I had tapped into. Now I have a couch to pay for then flights and spending money for the trip to the Keys to worry about- as well as the painters coming and next week and money for the probation fees and I was thinking about framing some room in the basement to work out in....but in the mean time I feel better with all credit cards paid off ( except the flights I booked today) and the credit line at Zero!
Other than that we booked our flights and the cruise is paid for and I am really looking forward to this vacay!
I looked at my holidays and noted that I have a few compressed day I can use and a few bonus days like the personal and volunteer days so that minimizes my holidays taken. This is really good because then I can take summer vacation to care for the kids!
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