I wait for that day I am bored

I read somewhere that a lady was waiting for that day to come that she was bored and I thought - ya so am I but.....only if that means that the stuff I had to do is already done!

What a nice thought- I have to prepare the forest and house for the party and decide on the food and make it and buy all the things that I need like....ice and booze and ya- lots to do!

I have furniture to put together in the garage and wood to buy and stack- There's a bedroom to paint and boy the list still goes on doesn't it!

I want to clean basement and garage and get rid of stuff and clean closets and get rid of stuff- boy I cannot wait until all that is done and I can just be bored!!

I should be happy that I found a snow board for 180 for the girl and I just have to buy the bindings for the snowboard I got last year for the boy- I have new skis for my girl so I also have new skis for the boy in that he gets her old ones.

I need boots for his snowboard and a jacket but I also have until Xmas before the snow flies- or so I think /hope.

In a year and a half I had a lot done, replaced ,fixed. And yet I still have a lot to dooooooo tooooo

just when you think it's going good......

So I thought I was cruising pretty well down the stress highway- I got home from a trip late one night the next day I was up and at it to get the electrical done- I finally peeked at the visa bill and was okay with it- not happy but okay.

I had gotten to a cottage to put stuff away, partook in the TG activities and made soups for the kids and the broth of two soups for friends.

I was getting some extra cleaning done- cleaned the fridge and the fronts of the kitchen cupboard doors and was keeping up at work and popping things in like no tomorrow into the calendar to be ready and know what's happening when-

Then it hit me 3 days of waiting for my kids to clean up and really clean up not this stuff it in the closet crap. Then the name calling started and they start fbombing me for things they should have done. lists 3 days old - not completed- rooms full of crap- then I start to fall back and then my legs give out and the next thing I know I am full out rolling backwards downhill hit and am crushed by the nastiness.

How can I do all I do for them- fix things make dinners ( that week roast chicken with mashed potatoes and the next day roast prime rib with boiled potatoes and veg and salads from the garden and then 2 home made soups.... )I made lunches included a pop and a chocolate bar as a surprise and then- they start swearing and calling me names and telling me to shut up.

I crashed hard and fast last night and it was very upsetting and I am really hurt by the kids. I don't know what to do....I miss my husband and I am angry and sad and lonely and hurt.

back from Yucatan Peninsula

Well we had a week in Mexico and the weather before our week was rainy and the week after they got a Hurricane so I am happy to report we had nothing but sunny hot weather and we enjoyed the trip- Mayan ruins, secret underground rivers and lots of beach.....it was a great trip.

The shopping stressed me out and I started to really worry about how much I was spending but I think it's going to be okay-
I loved the beach, hot white sand and blue sea made it fantastic- we chased the stingrays with our snorkels and fed fish schools that swarmed us! The iguanas were plenty- big to small and a few ate the banana my son fed them which was cute-

We saw a lot of the country and ate a few Mexican faves- tacos, corn chips and lots of guacamole and fresh salsa!

The kids learned a bit of Spanish and I practiced mine!

Then we got home- early the next morning was a helping cousin who fixed the lights I screwed up and the plug that was wonky- next I cleaned and did washing and got groceries and the dog- Next we put away a good deal of cottage stuff and removed the food- then we had turkey dinner and I took a lot of the carcass home- de-boned the meat and cubed the good stuff and boiled the bones and made a soup broth- I then brought the broth and a good amount of meat to my neighbors house who has been quite ill and she was pretty happy to get it and gave me pointers on how she makes the soups she has shared with me over the years-

She gave me a few spices and then I made my turkey noodle, she made hers and we both enjoyed a home made soup !

She had a chicken that she hadn't cooked yet and she was trying to get the energy up for it so she could make a soup- I guess my timing was good-

Then last night I made a roast beef dinner and did the same thing with the beef bone- my soup is amazing and she's happy to get a soup broth on again for next week! They like soup for lunches- They are older so they have the time for a nice home cooked lunch!

She also feels more productive this way, I do a lot of the long work and get the broth to her and then she just dices a few veg and add some noodles and spice and feels like she took care of dinner!

Once someone is sick and stops doing the little things it can really make them feel useless and it was my hope to activate the good proud feelings of accomplishment that will also make her feel better- :)

Mexico Saturday

Hell yes- I got to be getting my beach on!

I feel some days like jumping in the icy water river in my town and if that was the good idea you don't know what the bad ones are- and you don't want to.

I have kids that fight and lie and cheat and as much as I know that to be somewhat normal what a sister did to her brother was not so nice. She took his wallet and hid it - using the 100.oo he earned babysitting this summer and she let him take the heat for loosing the wallet all summer. Yep stood there silent while he was told he could not participate in things so long as the wallet was not found- he claimed that it was in his room- it probably was he just never knew that she took it- She spent to money- had nothing to show for it and cried when it was discovered. Now I have to find a fitting way to deal with this. How I miss my husband and all his wise ways and patience that I have none of.....I have cried all the way to work and home and sat in utter sadness by myself in the house. This is really hard-

So I try to focus on the good things and things like trips that I booked a long time ago......

school again

My goodness am I happy for school- not for summer to end tho! I really will miss the heat as I am not all that happy for winter this year- well that's it for now- I lost my inspiration somewhere!

house cleaned cottage stuff started -school too

We cleaned up then headed to the cottage- the clean up part ended badly I got to the end of my rope and I couldn't take it anymore- I get the "you should have said it this way" and the "you didn't tell me that" ( usually after I have told them 4-5 times to do something-

I get run down after a while- I am always running after someone giving a ride paying for a new something er other and when they get this they simply forget it it.....then I ask for something and it blows up up up!

Anyway- we ended up having a pretty nice stay a t the cottage and the weather wasn't great- rain! but between showers the grass was cut and the trampoline was taken in and the paddle boat done by my brother - I brought back a bunch of food and only left the basics and a few can goods that we will bring back next visit-

Last night the kids readied themselves for school and picked all the new pens and markers and highlighters for their pencil case and were pretty excited- I gave my girl a manicure at the cottage and then a pedicure at home and did some foil high lights in her hair! She felt good!

Big meeting coming up with work and a big bunch of things to do- furniture to be put together- wood bought and stacked and then painting ....ahhhh life !

sneak another one in before it's too late

I am burnt I am browned off that it is Sept tomorrow and I also got a bit too much sun yesterday- My girl did a photo shoot for the friend that works with a charity- see her on the bike...
My big tough guy cat has a black eye or something- He tangled with the unknown in the woods and looks like he got a few hits from the other guy-
My baby Kitty is sweet and snugly and loving and I wish she would stay the same forever- My old dog had a great trip to a city as few hours away with us and as always was the perfect gentle man. He sat through the drive enjoyed the grass at the soccer game took in a walk and a drink and then slept in the car quietly while we ate at a pub. The out door terrace was beside the car and we checked him a few times! It had cooled and the car was in the shade windows open-

I am tired as usual. School is on the way and so is a trip to Mexico- I just booked the kennel and I am ready for the surf!